commitment

I have had a lot of quiet time since the close of our Marburger Show, and I have been working on new designs and new ideas and as always the ideas come faster than my talents . I made a soft little discovery about myself this week, and I liked what I discovered. I have just started wearing contact lenses… I had them fitted just before Marburger, not a real bright time to make this decision ,as the hay and dirt and wind, and the pollen count being the highest it’s been for weeks.. but never the less I had decided to give them a try.. I was supposed to come back in a week , but told the DR. that I couldn’t possibly do that as I was busy with my most important show of the year….. I think he thinks I am with a circus or something like that.. anyway we agreed to a 10 day ck. up and so off I went with my NEW EYES.. I actually had no trouble getting them placed in my eye and felt so accomplished by this as they had assured me this would take some getting used to… but wow, I could do it easily right away. Then my daughter came and I mentioned that my eyes seemed a bit blurry, and she said” oh you will get used to it Mom and plus the wind is blowing a lot “.. and off we went. My eyes also teared a bit.. oh that’s normal , a friend said, she has the same type. So I continued to put them in faithfully. Then on the day of my check up , the Dr. asks how are you doing and I say” they seem a little blurry, and I tear a lot”, he repeats that’s pretty normal at first, lets take a look . So I take the eye test again.. and I hear a big HUMMMMM, I think what does that mean, I also feel I have done poorly on the test , my memory tells me that I saw better 10 days ago.. but I am open, after all I have been real busy and there is the deal with the wind and all.. he then tells me… “when you said you were committed to do this you really meant it, your lens has been in your eye crooked all this time.. like wearing your glasses as the absent minded professor would look , askew upon my face not even on my eye ball… no wonder I was having a little blurred vision.. any way this silly story, and long one ,has a happy ending , my fitting has been corrected and I now have 20/20 vision and I love having these new eyes. Now about the commitment part, often I have pontificated to others my ideas , my passions , my opinions, the things I believe, and value, the things I am disturbed about.. I realized that in all things I am a committed person.. to myself,my husband, my children, my friends , my work… my goals.. my dreams.. and it only took wearing my “glasses” a little caddy wampas… to reaffirm what I already knew about my self. Now for those of you who love me dearly this word committed does not refer to “having one committed” or “needing to be committed, (to the home , for instance), so don’t get any silly ideas in that direction.. ….. I will let you know when we need to address that topic.    Just a little afternoon rambling… thanks for indulging me.